This Notion template is designed so that people with OCD can track their compulsions, how they respond to triggers, and their progress through their exposure hierarchy over time. It has the major caveat that tracking compulsions can itself be compulsive, so that feature should probably only be used for short periods to get a snapshot of OCD symptoms. This template features a network of databases that relate to each other in a way that shows the structure of OCD, as I understand it.
More about thisI made this as a reminder to not feed OCD by giving into compulsions, whether that's asking for reassurance, giving it to someone else, or a whole host of other compulsions. Response prevention is how you starve OCD and break the cycle! The animal I chose to represent OCD is a mouse, because a friend calls their OCD "little mouse" as in "If you give a mouse a cookie..." Anyone who wants to put this somewhere as a reminder for themselves or others is welcome to. Feel free to contact me to ask for specific aspect ratios.
More about thisThis Notion template is designed for people who take many pills at a single time, multiple times a day, and want to keep track of all that. It includes the ability to see when you'll need refills. Just for fun, it includes calculation of how much of a med is in your system based on the half life you enter in. It's free to download, and it's received three reviews, all 5 stars. In my humble opinion, it's the best medication tracker on Notion, at least last I checked.
More about thisThere is madness inside all of us.
There was a time where such madness
was passed into my conscious attention
Ungated
Again and Again
a Torrent
Besieged by such thoughts images and urges
Bathed in them
Until I knew nothing
Until I couldn't argue anymore
Until all I could say was, "I don't know."
And when I knew I didn't know,
And let that be,
The walls began to restore.
The images were there, but half there.
The madness began to be below the surface —
It's still there.
My brain will likely boil again.
Who knows how?
Who knows what theme?
All I know is Now.
I call this one certainty because of the way the eye interacts with it. Try it: how long can your eye stay in the calm and light of the center before it's drawn into the chaos all around? In my experience, a temporary feeling of certainty is achievable through compulsions, but it's always temporary. There's always chaos again, until one stops seeking certainty at all.
More about thisIn this upcoming project, we'll be making a to-do app with neurodivergent users and executive functioning in mind. How? By presenting one task at a time in a card-based, Tinder-like format, where you can either snooze or do the task, then move on to the next one. User inputs for current energy level, mood, anxiety, and focus level, and each task's effects on these, enable an algorithm providing users with optimal tasks.
More about thisI made this piece as part of a workshop on using ugly art to overcome perfectionism. Indeed, this piece triggers me! It's triggering to look at it, and it's even more triggering to share it — which of course means it's great exposure. I welcome insults on this one, if you've got any. Thanks!
More about thisThis piece emerged organically and energetically using the blending modes in Adobe Illustrator. I feel it captures the energy and excitement that's centered in my chest and flies all around when I'm pursuing a new project, spurred on by my ADHD. It connects to my value of Magic, where I am the fulcrum by which things become more than they are. It is one of my favorite ways to be.
More about thisThis unpublished template enables tracking of Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors (BFRBs) like skin picking, hair pulling, and nail biting. It also enables planning interventions and is intended to provide gentle reminders of those interventions when someone is having an episode of their BFRB. I'm not ready to submit this to Notion to be part of their template gallery yet because I haven't explained every aspect of the databases, but it should be usable now. I'm happy to explain and modify it for you if you contact me about it.
More about thisThis fictional magazine cover was made in Adobe Photoshop for a class assignment, at a time when I was becoming more firm in my Autistic identity. I would love it if such a magazine existed! Photo credit to fidget circle on Flickr.
More about thisThere are so many reasons why eating can be challenging. In this upcoming project, we'll be doing what we can to make a food logging app that is accessible to people with restrictive eating disorders, by encouraging getting enough nutrients while hiding the calories. Gently suggested foods can guide users toward more variety that they're likely to enjoy, as in the case of Autistic people with samefoods who need particular textures. Additional considerations include food allergies and cost. It's going to be a challenge to balance so many intersecting needs, but I believe we can create something great. There's a big chance I could use your skills and input on this project!
More about thisFor this digital painting, I started with a photo I took at a local garden of a bee in a poppy in the middle of the day. The harder light lent simpler colors, but still enough to be interesting, plus the lovely spectral highlights on the bee's wings. To make the painting, I zoomed in until I was seeing individual pixels and then began a process of retexturing the image on a new layer using a colored pencil brush.
More about thisBefore this assignment, I thought art was something I couldn't do. Much to my surprise, it received a lot of positive feedback from my class, and my life has been different ever since.
More about thisFor this piece, I made a color stripe pattern based on the original Gilbert Baker pride flag, where each color had a meaning, before the colors were changed and cheapened for commercial appeal. A single woman holds these colors against a backdrop of the time I marched with Google for Pride.
More about thisA lofty day
of clouds and breeze
and blossoms on the apple trees;
Errands bring me out.
This Notion template is designed to let you know when you need to contact friends, based on what you put in for when you’ve last seen them. It also enables mutual aid by letting you see who to connect to who, based on who needs what and who’s offering what.
More about thisI believe this captures the feeling of a meltdown, when the demands of conformity in an office setting and the buzzing bright overhead lights become too much to bear and it feels like you're on fire.
More about thisThis piece was made using basic selection tools and adjustment layers, which was what I knew how to do at the beginning of my class on Photoshop. I tried a few variations of what this should be, and ended up with this one.
More about thisThis postcard was created for my page layout class, informed by a trip I took to SFMOMA. It's based on the exhibit "Eye Me" by Zanele Muholi.
More about thisThis project is in progress. I'm redesigning the website for NeuroQueer.org, an online community of neurodivergent adults that I'm a part of. Take a look at what I've got so far!
More about thisJudge me as you will.
May each blemish be overexposed
and outlined in deep shadow.
In the clarity of your clear blue sky
may I be the montster.
May you be bright and sure.
But—there is wisdom in softness.
And maybe later I could see you,
in hues of gold and blue,
in midtomes,
and I'll tell you:
each nuance I see
is beautiful.
It’s hard to feel like flossing matters,
When the votes are in,
When they want you dead,
When they’re getting their way —
Or like it matters
If I wash my hands an extra time,
Or pick my skin a bit,
Or shower a bit long.
In a few months, we’ll see;
Maybe sooner, who knows?
But for now, I’ll get my passport,
And consider making my birth certificate binary,
And wonder if I pass,
And I’ll confess:
I didn’t floss last night —
But I did this morning,
And I’m drinking water,
And I'm checking in on friends,
And nothing is over yet.
This digital painting uses a pen & ink technique to portray my cat Courtney when she was feeling photogenic. To make it, I zoomed in and made the strokes where the fur was in my reference image of her. For the record, she is a lovely cat who will purr just from looking at you.
More about thisThis app is geared toward helping patients communicate with their doctors. It's made with chronic illnesses and other disabilities in mind. It's been paused at the low-fidelity stage for a while, but I'm hoping that eventually we could get to it as part of the nonprofit I'm starting soon.
More about thisMy sweetest cat, Quill, was a wonderful and cooperative model for the photo shoot for this one. This was the first piece I made consciously using Bezier curves, with the pen tool in Adobe Illustrator.
More about thisThis piece was made in Photoshop based on a picture I took of a towel that was hanging on my bedroom door. To make it, I zoomed in and made strokes where the fibers of the towel were, with longer and more concentrated strokes where there is more shade.
More about thisThis piece was made during an OCD support group based on the poem by Rumi, "Zero Circle."
More about thisDysregulated today
with the rearing of my PDA
and too many demands
and changes in plans
a meltdown may be on the way.
In this assignment for a page layout class, we were tasked with creating a postcard based on a template by Adobe in Adobe InDesign. I chose the text, the colors, and the images, and came up with what I think is a cohesive whole that guides the eye of the viewer in a pleasing way.
More about thisThe assignment here, for my page layout class, was to create magazine pages for the California Academy of Sciences. They had a lot of great content on their website, which I used here. I'm pleased with how this page turned out.
More about thisIn this project, I chose to illustrate the last stanza of Emily Dickinson's "I Felt a Funeral" by giving the words visual actions. I chose "I Felt a Funeral" because of how the poem conveys my experience of OCD. I once got stuck repeating it in my head, until I found the significance of the "then—" which places the funeral at a point in time and provides a bridge to the next thing.
More about thisFor a page layout class, I created a flyer for Filoli, a local historic estate. I lucked out and found a package of graphic design resources for Filoli specifically, which made my job easy here. Everything in this flyer was taken from there, except the basic template which is from Adobe.
More about thisThis piece has a photo I took at sunset in Foster City on one layer, and then uses a series of layer masks to create a watercolor effect.
More about thisYou don't have to make sense
You don't have to continue this way
You don't have to
It's okay to be disliked
It's okay to have dark thoughts
It's okay to
Sometimes you need sustenance
Sometimes you need beauty
Sometimes you need rest
Sometimes you need